Today, I rode past my old house in Renton.
It was occupied with a lovely family, a mom, a dad, and a beautiful blonde haired blue eyed son.
He had everything I never had in that house, a trampoline, a nice shed, a nice bike and an un-cracked window.
I only wish that it could have been like that for me. Maybe I'm being too selfish. Maybe I'm being a bitch again. Maybe I'm saying that since I never had the greatest childhood in that house, neither should the boy. But that's all a lie. I hope and wish that boy has everything I never had, great memories. I hope he grows up in that house just like I did. I hope he lives in my room. That was such a nice big room. I hope he has his friends come over and trash his room like I did with my friends. I hope he talks to my friend acrossed the street and have good times with him like I did. I wish him the best. I wish his mom and dad the best, because that house was built by my great grandfather's bare hands and I hope they respect it. I can't believe somebody lives there, I never thought it would happen until I saw them all enjoying fresh squeezed lemonade on the porch. As much as I hated that house, I miss it. I wish I were them.
It was interesting how you were talking to me as you described it here.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you were too selfish. We all think that way. Good people decide in the end that the innocent deserve the best and I think that's what you did here.
Agreed.
ReplyDeleteI find your attachment to the house interesting. I love how you said your grandfather built it and that you hate it, but miss it. Almost everyone can relate to that in someway.
I didn't know you're grandfather built it. That changes everything. Before I just thought you where attatched because it used to be your house, but now I understand. But I'm sorry for the loss :(
ReplyDeleteHowever I'm sure memories will carry on in there.