Friday, December 25, 2009

i have never felt

so, not myself. like, I just woke up and you stripped me of all of my childhood in a matter of seconds. The excitement of santa clause is gone. I have no excitement. I woke up, and I had no christmas tree. I couldn't sleep 'cause I thought I was a kid again, tossing and turning in my little footie pajamas. I thought I could smell him, the candy canes and the reindeer piss. I thought I heard a fat man upstairs, but it turns out, it was only the other guy. The guy who fucking ruined my inner-child, and his dad that ruined halloween. This time of year, used to be my favorite. But I can honestly say, I will NEVER get excited again. All I wanted, was to wake up one last time before I fucking grew up. I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP I'M STILL A FUCKING KID I'M A 6 YEAR OLD KID RUNNING AROUND THE PLAYGROUND WITH MY NIGHTIE ON. But when will you understand, that this is only self pity. Because you've got everything you wanted. All the million dollar things all the material things. Fuck you and fuck this.





MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS.

3 comments:

  1. yeah i dont really like the last lines
    but dont pay comments like you're not 6 anymore any mind
    just buy yourself shit, wrap it up under the tree and open it in front of them

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  2. With kids, you can do this however you want, if you have your own I mean.

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