It's kind of a funny story how at one point, my life was everything and more I wanted it to be. It's also kind of funny how I can't have anything going right for me, just for one fucking day, without fucking it up. It's even more hilarious how I'm being blamed for anything and everything anymore. I'm not innocent, no, by any means necessary you're not either. I hope you realize that, and I hope you get better some day I really do, I just think you needed this. You needed this to nudge you on the shoulder one last time and smile it's gritty teeth in your face for the last time. I think I needed this, too, I needed to see that I don't know what I have until it's gone, and I finally realized that. I should have realized that umpteen years ago but I'm too blind and too stupid to realize anything anymore without someone flaunting something I know I can't have in my face. It's really tickling all of this, really it is. It tickles me to know that you care so much. You probably still care as I'm typing this, but I don't care, that's the thing. I could give two fucking shits about you. It's all tying together for me. You can't let anyone have what they want, it all has to be yours. Yours or nothing. I hate to be the one to tell you that you're not going to always get what you want, I hope one of the monsters under your bed or one of the demons following you around in your mind reminds you of what you have done, because I know mine will, and I'm not cool with getting the shitty end of the stick. At the end of the day I realize that I'm not the best person in the world and I'm not fucking perfect, you need realize that a bunch of people need to realize that. We're all human in the end, we all like attention, we all like to feel special in one way or another and we all like having people that like us. It's just how it fucking works. At least I can admit that I am human, you however, think you're fucking Jesus Christ. You're not, and never will be. Don't worry, you'll get what's coming to you, karma is one helluva bitch and she's just waiting for the right time and place to put you where you belong.