I was rolling down the highway on the bus, and this song was playing, and I forgot the name of it and where it was from, but it made me feel like we were living in the suburb world in that one music video where we weren't allowed to just be teenagers. Sometimes in real life I feel like that and it really depresses me and then I just don't know what to do, I just kind of sit there and close my eyes and wonder what it's going to be like if all I'm going to amount to is riding a bike to and from the kwikee. I don't understand what everybody wants me to do, I don't quite understand why you hate me, I've never done anything to anybody and all I'm trying to do is sit and be a teenager. Just let me do what I want to do, we don't have much longer. We don't. Cancer is becoming and everyday occurrence, and an every day thought in my mind every time I light up a cigarette.