Have you ever had that sinking feeling in your gut? Like you sort of want to vomit but all you can really do is dry heave in hopes of some stomach bile coming up? Have you ever just had a day where all you can think of is what the stranger across from you on the bus is thinking and if they're a serial killer or not? Have you ever just had a moment when you stopped to think about when the last time you laughed was? Have you ever walked across a bridge over water and wondered how hard you would have to hit the water for you to be dead? Have you ever just dropped everything you're doing and just do something someone else wouldn't approve of on purpose? Have you ever just stopped to think who truly cares about you but you can't really find anybody who does?
Have you ever just thought that what you were writing is completely ridiculous and stupid and you should just stop while you're ahead?
-Yes to all of the above.
Still in love with your writing style. And those are thoughts I know all too well. But... when you push on, through the thick. There comes a time when you look back, and you can only smile.
ReplyDeleteWhy do you smile? Maybe its because you've acomplished something. Maybe its because you've risen from the dirt. Maybe its because you're stronger.
Whatever it may be... it feels great.
I care about you !
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