In the nick of time, you appeared behind me, and I didn't know what to say. I was shocked and confused and perplexed.. all at the same time. I didn't know whether or not to give you a hug, to kiss you or to just kick you and tell you that you were never worth it. You were never there for me when I needed you and I can't really forgive you for that. Honestly, I don't really care about your well being..I don't really care for mine either. I just care about what's happening right now.. in this moment sitting in class not reading what I'm supposed to be reading thinking about how I have coffee cakes in my book bag and how they're going to get smooshed by lunch time. Derek Lee is looking at my screen and he's watching me type this. "What? Coffee cakes?" I like how I want to hug everyone and how I don't care if people read this. I only do this for myself because I never get things out in the open. Just with you. Where are you, by the way?

I have honestly never been so happy in my life.

All thanks to you.

Have you ever had that sinking feeling in your gut? Like you sort of want to vomit but all you can really do is dry heave in hopes of some stomach bile coming up? Have you ever just had a day where all you can think of is what the stranger across from you on the bus is thinking and if they're a serial killer or not? Have you ever just had a moment when you stopped to think about when the last time you laughed was? Have you ever walked across a bridge over water and wondered how hard you would have to hit the water for you to be dead? Have you ever just dropped everything you're doing and just do something someone else wouldn't approve of on purpose? Have you ever just stopped to think who truly cares about you but you can't really find anybody who does?

Have you ever just thought that what you were writing is completely ridiculous and stupid and you should just stop while you're ahead?

-Yes to all of the above.