I SIMPLY CANNOT TELL YOU ANYTHING. AS YOU ARE DOING THE SAME TO ME.
It's only fair.
I'm keeping a lot inside for you, and you're holding more back than I expected.
I can only tell you sugar coated messages in hopes of saving a little speck of a relationship we have going.
It looks like right about now, we're losing it all. It's all falling apart like the pages to the letters from 3-fucking-years-ago.
I'm listening to the music you made fun of, and I COULD CARE LESS.
"I CANNOT EXPRESS TO YOU THE DEPTHS IN WHICH I DO NOT CARE"
I feel like that. Haha, I do though.
It's merely a pit in my stomach that I can't ignore anymore. Trust isn't a word we can just vomit onto the floor anymore. It can't just lay there without getting cleaned up anymore. It needs to be cleaned up, mopped, and have that oat stuff lie on top of it all day long. To soak up all of the fibs we've told to each other and all of the hidden words behind those 5 measly letters.
I extended that sentence because the words won't come out. I had it all planned out in my head. Of what I was going to say to you. But I can't. You can't, obviously.
When I sat there, I watched the streetlights pass my eyes and burn my retinas only for a second. I was deep in thought and got interrupted by a wave of unnecessary laughter. I'm sorry if this is offending, it's only the truth. I feel this way. You can't make fun of me, you can't fight with me about this. It's my feelings and I have no other way of expressing it. This is the thing I typed into the search bar. And this is where I am.
But, I'm not telling you that..
I never said I hated your music, I simply said this:
ReplyDelete"I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying"
THAT is an emo lyric and there are alot of others from blink 182. And i'm not putting them down or anything i just dont see why you think the shit im listening to is 'emo' when it's a stupid label that i could even put on one of your favorite bands
That's not important though, onwards.
and yeah as far as opinions, ours are changing. We're thinking differently acting differently and even addressing each other differently. But it doesn't have to mean anything. We could 'sugar coat' everything in the world but it's not going to help. The relationship is getting harder and we just have to learn to handle things better. Things basically are getting realer and I think it's scaring you.
i'm in the same place and i think derrick's right. people change a lot in a year and things get really real, especially since you spend so much time together. things are gonna be really difficult, but they'll get better if you work really hard. you guys love each other, you're gonna be able to get through it and when you do, you'll grow together as people and things will be even better than ever.
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