Lonely Seed

Feeling like you don't even deserve to see the sun, and the rain at the same time

and feeling like you're not ready to see a rainbow is a really.bad.feeling.

Feeling like you can't be yourself anymore because people aren't happy with you

will you get you contemplating jumping out of this 11^th story window.

In the midst of the pizza and the words, you reach a point of annoyance and irritation with every being that is walking the world

that is having a relatively GOOD conversation with their friends on the sidewalk avoiding getting hit by any buses. For all the ones right now that are laughing it up at a bus stop because you both woke up late for school and you're going to have a wonderful cigarette induced adventure to school, yeah FUCK YOU.

For the ones that have a wonderful home life and a clean, tidy room to come home to, PLEASE commit suicide.

For the people that are untidy, always-honest-and-nice-and-an-overall-good-person-but-nobody-notices-it…join the fucking club.

And as of me, I'm lonely, so lonely and nobody will pick me up off the ground, and nobody will heal my wounds with used bandages from the nurses office, and nobody will love me for who I am, because who I am is a monster.

[But I'm a ghost to everyone]

Honey, nobody cares.